Being on your own.

when i was a kid , obviously i did almost everything which my papa hated . then ofcourse i was scolded . the most frequent sentence of all the fathers while scolding their sons is ' DO WHATEVER YOU WANT TO WHEN YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN. NOT NOW TILL YOU ARE MY RESPONSIBILITY'.

thinking back all those incidentsi gathered my thoughts of mind ..' HE CAN NEVER STOP SCOLDING ME'.
i used to think can i ever be on my own. will my father or mom or sisters , ever let me do whatever i want . will i ever have a day when i won't have any advice and i could take my own decision on my own.

well today i surely miss those days when none of my decision was deciding my life. should i study or play cricket with friends never was such a great decision that it may take my job or me loosing a opportunity of getting job. stepping out to do something and you have hundreds of advices . but what a days they were that we could easily ignore all those advice and do whatever we want to . and the 'payback punishment' was just 10 minutes of my papa's rage.
looking at the same scenario today, stepping out to do something, again we have hundreds of advice but now we cant ignore any. we just cant close our eyes , turn our deaf ears to every advise and ignore them. then collecting all the advices, we get messed up in between of them and then wish if we were not on our own.
why we have to do this?? why are we on our own. why isn't someone else who could take correct decision for us but sorry now you are on your own. you have to take decision.

ever felt the dilemma  , when you are financially tortured and suddenly you feel urge to eat your favorite dish. on side of  your brain says. go dude eat it. we will see whatever happens tomorrow and other, nope save money , you dont have enough. finally you binds your fist as tightly as possible , say 'shit' and move away. turning back to early days of your life . going out with your father to the market and saw anything worth to eat and just took it and thats it. no dilemma, no vexing , nothing. but now we have to vexed . because alas we are now on our own.

looking at the brighter side . now we can be a person on whom other can sustain . we can make other feel , don't worry we are here. we are on our own and you can count on us .      

yet another day

here i am . this is me. there is nowhere else on earth i would rather be.
i everyone, your nightmare is back. i was thinking that how we wake up in the morning everyday and the first thought that come in the mind differs from person to person. for example... a old person will think, one more day to live. A kid's thought differs according to days like in holiday .. Yahoo day to play else Shit its morning again. A lover boy would think ,wow a new day to meet my fav person on earth. BUT WORKING CLASS LIKE ME and like ME'S, thinks here comes sun mocking over us , another day to struggle . here comes YET ANOTHER DAY.
i never knew that i will ever love morning,,,,, infact i till now don't know ki i love morning. generally as soon as i wake up , some stupid friends will send some jolly filled morning message with some spice of inspiration in them . these type of messages are generally deleted before even read. then have war to conquer the bathroom . then a race to catch the bus. then a war to save yourself from the boss rage. then war within yourself to focus on your work rather than counting the ticking of clock. after leaving the office war with your opponents who want to capture the seats in the bus. then back to home. wow such a battlefield type of life we working class youths have. A time before,someone told me about the troubles of working class . now i have registered my name in the " TROUBLES IN WORKING CLASS LIFE COMMUNITY".
well now i know heaven lies in my bed and everything else in the world is hell. I LOVE MY BED . but on other side of night lies a new morning with new hopes and even newer disappointments .this is not the negativity but a practical thing which we all feel. everyone know on the horizon of this night's sky lies YET ANOTHER MORNING.   

love your life since its for free

Hi everone. i am back . sorry for being mr. invisible for so many days. so my today's blog is dedicated to life.

wow i am getting intellectual. 

well life! a small word with a lot inside it. it is as they say " life is long if you know how to use it." . BUT do you agree with those idiot thinkers who just don't think before saying anything. just a small question from all of those who put their agreement to the above quote. Which time pass quickly, when you are sitting idle or when you are utilizing the clock ticking worth. Answer you all know. 

SO I WOULD MODIFY THIS QUOTE AND SAY.." life is small if you know how to use it". So common friend ,why won't we enjoy being human, being the superior in the food chain , being superior in intellectuality. We all have some problem and when problem says hello to us what we all do, is to hung our phone away. And the problem again and again keep on giving us calls. Come on guys , face it , talk to problem and make it feel that we are no one to get scared of it. And believe me you will start enjoying the problems. 

One of my good friends always says .." PHATI ME JEENE KA APNA ALAG HI MAJA HAI.". means "there is a special joy in living in trouble". you can say WOW ! adventure finally came into my way. Or can drown your forehead into your palms and say " Not again". life is yours and so is decision. just the difference is in one condition you will learn the secret of being happy and in other how to loose the water of your body throigh your eyes.

life is given just once. for my phenomenon , we should live the life not pass it away. for me to live your life you should never let the child inside you, die. do whatever you want to(off course not those which even takes you away from being a human being). just a time before in film Guzarish ,i think, there is a dialogue that "ZINDAGI JAISI BHI HAI ,JITNI BHI HAI ,BAHUT KHOOBSURAT HAI".  hats off to the person who wrote these lines. 

my lines are "LIFE IS A FESTIVAL, CELEBRATE IT BEFORE ITS GONE. BECAUSE THIS FESTIVAL JUST COMES ONCE".

Screw all your rules for life , all your boundaries . just do whatever your heart tells you . whatever can bring on your face ,the smile of your soul.

have you ever tried following thing. 

Playing with the puppies of stray dogs. if not then try it . you will know what it is like getting the love back ,if you are giving it too someone.

walking on empty road at night and singing your favourite song as loudly as you can.you will know ,let it be how bad you sings but you are a good singer for yourself.

Do anything which in normal situation wants to do , but never does because you thought its insanity. Believe me insanity is such a fun.

well with this i will finish my today's blog. i hope you liked it.     

o my god ... such a chilled night...

jingle bell jingle bell , jingle all the way ... 

santaclaus is left behind now , 

and cristmas has gone away ; 

as we all know( we the working class people in private firm ) cristmas was on saturday and this ate away our one holiday .. damn on luck . and see again the lucifer laughs as new year is also on saturday.. so i was very upset over this. Two great days gone in vain . means all we know getting a leave from office on such occasion is like butterscotch topping on a chocolate cake . but ... alas we have no cream no toppings and not even cake . 

by the way . thinking all these i was sitting on the sitting in open almost frosty night . all the sudden i felt wow what a cold feeling it is. i felt my feet were almost as cold as ice and it felt if the Caillech herself is breathing ice all over me .

but you know , lucifer always stops you to do right thing . i should have gone inside the room and drowned myself into my warm and cozy bed but hullo !!! adventure would be left behind ; how could i let it happen.  so i challenged the godesss to increase the strength of cold winds . i don't know what i thought if i am a character of shakespere's play to challenge anyone . 

well whatsoever it be but all the happened was i had challenged and was standing beneath the open sky on a winter night . and then it happened . you pray thousand times in front of god , for you something good to happen but your wish is never heard . all that all mighty will do will be turning his deaf ear toward you . but see first time in my life i asked him to do something so weird to me and yipee , he heard and even replied a super chilled blow of wind. believe me  what a wind it was . it paseed from my ears and i could felt it in my tummy. 

to explain it properly i will say even lucifer inside we ran away and left me alone in the battle with nature. DAMN HE !!! now i was alone . so i showed bravery and just gave up. 

As a great person like me have said  " its better to live intellectually than to die stupidily" . 

(For your knowledge i wanna tell you that the great person who said these lines is me myself) . so now i was all cold and was fully on vibrating mode. i wonder if i could have reached to my room without even walking . but man will be man . so hyped myself in front of my friends . it was like this " cold !!! where ??? arry its so wonderful outside why don't you all try .? " . gosh !! and then i was in heaven . suddenly i was outburst with love for my bed . so much that i kissed it .. ha ha ha . but all we do will have to paid. so i give back the debt i fell ill. god is so harsh . but believe me if you wanna to know the importance of your bed then try to be as idiotic as me. you will also definitely kiss your bed.   

JOURNEY TO VILLAGE, 3 SHAHARI LADKO KI GRAM YATRA

Just some days before,, me and my two room mates and a friend from our insti planned to have a tour visit to the village of my one of the room partners. Yaar plan jo mujhe impress kiya ki we will have a long night walk in the khets(farms). Think of it kaali raat and khet.. that too of ganna(sugarcane,, O come on now i am not going to explain all such words in english). So we took bus for our village's nearest city, Meerut. and the most idiotic decision, ki hum almost raat ko nikle. Means it was around 7 we left Noida . We reached meerut around 9'o clock. Till now everything was fine. We reached and enjoyed our roadtrip. But now the problem was that the last taxi to the village was at 8'o clock, so ab humare pass koi option nahi tha ki how will we reach to Birju's home. Haan haan keh sakte hai ki we went out of stock of taxi. NO PROBLEM, was our thoughts. Par Birju(the boy to whose home we were going), knew it wasn't a no problem situation. Waise main , anki,aur nihu were enjoying. Akeli raat aur 4 jawan ladke, akele highway par, door door tak koi nahi, na aadmi na aadmi ki jaat,, Oye koi typical situation nahi hai .. itni dhyaan se kya padh rahe ho aap log. Mean all i wanted to say ki mast hawa chal rahi thi , full moon night thi aur door door tak kuch nahi. Boy's point of View se ,"""AWESOME SITUATION""", we waited at the small turn in main stream of road  which would take us to our destination.. after sometime a truck came. since NIHU is from Orrisa so he was shivering ,, ya i admit ki thand thi but we the boys never admit easily what we feel physically.. so we called him.. HATT THANDA AADMI.. Now situation was worse for Nihu since till now we were in city..BIRJU to hai hi gaon ka.. Bache hum means me and Anki. bechare thand se kaap bhi nai sakte the, izzat ka sawal tha.. truck took its speed and with every passing minutes thand badh rahi thi,so were our excitement and so was Nihu ka kaapna. Par ya from here my inner spiritual man awoke. Pure cool breeze just went passing through my hair.. both side miles and miles of farms with different plants in them.. and half darkness due to someeeeeeeeeeeee,, oops na na many trees, and meanwhile i was admiring the all beauties which we miss living in cities.. its like heaven when u see all land and the moon light on it. A thin road ,jo apka truck peeche chhodta jaa raha hai, aur uss sadak par andhera, ye sab dekh hi raha tha ki ek khayal aya, KI YAAR YE ANDHERE KA KALA RANG BHI AJEEB HI HOTA HAI. SAARE RANGO KO APNE ME SAMETT KAR APNE JAISA BANA LETA HAI. WO DOOR KI CITY'S LIGHT BHI DHEERE DHEERE APNE ME SAMA LIYA. GAJAB CHEEZ HAI YE ANDHERA BHI. SAARE RANGO KO APNE JAISA KAR LETA HAI.. after thinking this maine ANDHERE MAHARAJ ko namaste kiya, aur asmaan ko dekhne laga.. WOW I DIN'T EVEN REMEMBER SINCE WHEN I SAW SUCH A CLEAR SKY,, ALMOST FULL MOON AND REST WHOLE SKY WAS FULL OF STARS.. ALL MOCKING OVER US .. YA WE WERE ALMOST PANAUTI KING AT THAT TIME.. Arey panauti se yaad aya nihu. ITNA TO PHONE VIBRATION  ME NAHI SHIVER HOTA HOGA JITNA WO SHIVER HO RAHA THA,,, me ,anki and birju were enjoying the nature. Truck trip toh was AWESOME,.,.,.,. DARKNESS , MOON LIGHT , STARS . FARMS , VEGETATION, YAAR EVERTINH WAS GREAT.. BELIEVE ME GUYS.. EVEN HEAVEN CANT BE BETTER.. finally hum birju ke ghar pahuch gaye the.. nihu ne bhi kaapna band kar diya tha.. now all we did,, oopps means i did will be told in next blog.. 

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